For once, I don’t want to be preachy. It’s hard to seem so motivational, to talk such big words and inspirational stuff when I myself can’t even organize my life properly.
So, I’ll join you in chaos. I’ll join you in your desperate attempts to make life worthwhile and productive.
I kind of hate the title of this blog post, because then, all the things I’ll list down will become burdens. For a person who takes promises seriously and has her life in shambles, you’d think I wouldn’t bring this upon myself. But I’m also so fed up with me rambling about my disorganization and unproductiveness here in this blog and it’s about time I make some changes that stick.
I know I promised to do stuff in the past and maybe I did do them and now a better person, but this disorganization and lack of control over my life—over the things I can control, of course—has to stop once and for all.
I’m making these promises to myself because I want 2018 to be a good one. A year of opportunity and success and self-love and self-satisfaction. I want to be okay being me. I want to be okay with how I’m doing.
So, here goes nothing.
I PROMISE TO WRITE MORE
I have to admit, 2017 was not a writing year for me. I wrote sparingly, not to mention mostly about the same topics: my sadness, my freaking disorganization. In 2018, I want to push myself to write more. To get back to writing poetry even.
Also, to keep writing in my journal and keep my thoughts in check!
I PROMISE TO SAVE AND BUDGET MY MONEY PROPERLY
2017 was the year I started earning. Earning simultaneously meant I started to shoulder all of my family’s living expenses and the first 5 months of that had me overwhelmed. Overwhelmed actually is an understatement but okay. This 2018 I would like to promise myself to get a more steady hold of the money that I get. A clearer grasp of spending and saving and budgeting smart. I will be a bitch who knows how to make my money flow. LOL.
I PROMISE TO LOVE MYSELF MORE
That means working out! I cannot remember the last time I went for a jog. At work, we have gym privileges but not once have I ever been inside because I always feel like I’ll just miss out on precious sleep if I spend time working out. Working the night shift has its cons, I know.
This year I promise to lose the belly fat I did not realize I gained. LOL. Also to tone my thighs! They are gigantic. Of course, not meaning to say that all these extra fat is bad, I just want to stay at a certain weight and body mass.
Also, eating healthy? The question mark is because…can I really? I guess I just need to watch what I eat and make sure I’m not just binging on chocolates and sweets all the time.
I always stay hydrated though! A must!
I PROMISE TO GET BACK TO READING
Before the year started, my man surprised me by giving two of the mythological books I’ve been moaning about for the past months. This year, along with eating up the said books, I also promise to read at least, at least, one book a month. To follow up my other promise, I also want to be able to make more decent book reviews out of those.
Reading has not only broaden my knowledge about the world per se but a clearer grasp in the many facets of man’s mind. How it works, why it does what it does and a lot more things. I want to think more and be more.
I PROMISE TO GROW
Not much a difficult promise. A year is long, I am bound to grow one way or another but I want to establish as early as now that I don’t want to be the same whiny twenty-year-old old I am right now. Heck, I am twenty. I should grow up, more than I have already and be a lady woman…or whatever.
I PROMISE TO LISTEN TO MORE MUSIC
Okay, another given. But I guess, I want to broaden my view of music. I’ve always known that I’m an alternative indie chick. You know, Walk the moon, Halsey, Jaymes Young type of stuff but this year I want to venture into jazz and soul, too. I’ve been feeling ‘em tunes a lot these days. And most probably rock too just because 5sos3 is in the corner.
I PROMISE TO BE KINDER, MORE CONSIDERATE AND TO LOVE LIFE MORE
I’ve always claimed to love life. To want to see the good in everything and maybe that’s how it was this 2017. I achieved stuff, was proud of myself and was good to others. But there’s no other judge of my character than myself. With that being said, I’d still like to promise to myself this so that I’d maintain this mindset, to keep on seeing the good in others and keeping myself in check and knowing that other people carry their own burdens, too.
I PROMISE TO CHERISH THE PEOPLE I HAVE BETTER
Oh, here we go. I fully admit to being a bad friend. Someone who is just horrible at keeping touch. Together with keeping my life together, I also want this year to be the year I reach out, the year I balance my relationships with everyone, especially my friends. I’ve got a lot of friends in different places, school, work, fandom, internet, and etc. I want to renew the bonds I have with them as they are people who helped me in my dark times. They were people who knew me at my worst and stayed.
I PROMISE TO BE A BETTER SISTER
I am a horrible sister, I tell you. Sometimes I wonder why my little sister doesn’t hate me yet. Or maybe she does already. Sometimes, it’s just the stress and me not wanting to deal with her going through puberty. But, of course, who’s she gonna have if I’m not there for her? So, Sofia, you most probably won’t read this but I’ll be a better sister. Well, once you start to make your bed after waking up and not being so messy all the time. LOL. I love you a lot and I’m here for you always even when I don’t seem so. Got you, always 여동생.
I PROMISE TO BE A BETTER SAM
All in all, I just promise to be a better person. Life will continue to constantly throw shit my way, I just have to accept that. I have to react better, to know how to work my way through the crap. To keep my cool, to know I have people who have my back and will not judge me for the things that happen to me. I will be a Sam that the Sam writing right now would be proud of.
There we go. Ten promises to keep me busy this year. One way or another, it will be another hurricane of happiness and sorrow and everything at once. Honestly, I’m not really sure if I’m ready for all that but I can only hope.
How about you? Any promises you plan to make? Please do share them in the comments!
I hope you can look at 2018 as a year of opportunity and growth, too! Go us!
To fruitfulness and productivity!
*flies away to oblivion*