i can’t have that

there are just one too many ways i can silence these voices, kill my demons, end this madnessβ€” but i choose not to. for killing them means killing me. and killing me means leaving youβ€” i can't have that.


subway trains and you

there's a striking resemblance to what i feel when the subway train comes, and what i feel when you do. a fear. fear of falling down on the rails, just as the train would pass. fear of falling in your arms, of falling in love too fast. an exhilaration. of when the wind of its… Continue reading subway trains and you


it's all static noise now, ever since you left. i stare at the empty space beside me, and my agony couldn't be kept. i screamed and i screamed, and i clawed at my throat, but the noise of your absence couldn't be drowned out. it went on and on; a single, devastating note. - s.c.m.


she is vicious; always on her toes, she attacks anyone who comes too close she is rabid, she is wild, she's full of wonder like a child she is untamed; she has no rules to follow she doesn't bend around a norm, for the norm is afraid to be swallowed by her ecletic views and… Continue reading she-wolf

you don’t get it

you don't get it; i said i won't leave and there's nothing you can do that would make me go you think after one breakdown, that after i see your broken formβ€” your real self, naked and bareβ€” i would leave. you think when i witness your demons wreaking havoc and your struggle for control,… Continue reading you don’t get it


sometimes she's the past; a lingering aftertaste of the wine you had yesterday, a flashback of emotions you felt when you drowned as a kid, a familiar smell you never could describe. sometimes she's the present, full of spontaneity, shallow breaths and quick heartbeats, she bursts with life and carries around a vibrant aura, she… Continue reading past/present

a disaster

we are a disaster when our lips touch, an earth-shaking explosion that comes in a rush our eyes serve as the trigger and our bodies are the bombs, we detonate through each other's wordsβ€” sweet nothings slipping from our tongues our hands are literal hand grenades, making sensations explode in each other's skin upon contact… Continue reading a disaster

Mom’s Day

I would say one should not only show affection and appreciation to Mothers only on Mother's Day but every day but then we don't want to be a buzzkill, aye? Let's just celebrate and be jolly! Happy MOM's Day to all your wonderful moms! This day you should double up the show of affection and… Continue reading Mom’s Day

Friends are happiness

As someone who creeps and lives in the interweb for most of my waking hours, I've gone to know an awful lot of people and became friends with them. Some closer than others, some I trust with my fears and self-doubts. But of course, it's only normal to realize some of them are different than… Continue reading Friends are happiness